April 6th

Jimmy's Dream

A building like a concrete turtle
eyes closed
unwilling
I went up the stairs and into the doorway
to the room
behind the turtle's slow head
there was a minotaur throwing a doll against
the wall there
again
the crack of the doll's neck
the minotaur steam
in the doorway
I dreamed myself a shell and went
into the room
where I was again
a twelve year old boy in jeans and a t shirt and
the minotaur was throwing that doll against
the wall again

In front of the building
shuttered turtle eyes turned
like it remembered
being in a cardboard box
trotting turtle circles

I went up the stairs and into the doorway
to the room
in my slow heavy head
I circled up the stairs and to the doorway
Into the room
Up the stairs, the doorway, the room,
up, to, the room,
I went up the stairs and into the doorway
cracked shell
into the room
where it was just my father throwing
something against the wall
again
something against the wall
the cardboard
wall cracked